I have been through a lot recently and I am really not sure if I can stay the way I am. My life has taken a complete 180 but in that time I have realised that.. I need to grow up. Maybe not too fast but slowly , my parents are expecting me to get the highest grades and not date boys. At the end of the day I am a teen , I will rebel and obviously date boys. My grades aren't horrific maybe if I pushed myself I could please my parent. But you see I don't want to please my parents I want to be free , I want to date boys and make mistakes because that's how I'll learn not to fuck up. They don't see that. Currently it doesn't matter what they think because we aren't talking and I am hoping it will stay that way. As every time we speak its platonic. I guess you can't always have the best relationship with your parents and even if you could arguments happen however hard you try but in my case the last argument was too big and too real it won't ever be the same. Take this example breaking someone's trust is like crumpling up a piece of paper ; however much you try to smooth it , it will never be the same. That's how I feel our relationship will never be the same. It's frustrating because I have tried too hard to make it like a normal parent relationship.
You can't always get what you want
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